To Do

I'm sick.

I'm pretty tired.

   And I'm getting pissed off at the fact that people won't just shut up and think before speaking. 

   Too many people have nothing to say and continue saying it. 

   Was it religion that made judging so openly a societal norm? Because as a non-religious person, I've learned not to judge people so goddamn loudly and openly. Keeping the shitty, hurtful things I could cut people down with to myself. By doing so, I've learned to just overlook things. One thing leads to another, now, negativity is far from my mind.

   It wasn't always that way, of course. As a person with 3 older siblings, I spent the majority of my pre-teen and teenage years defending myself against comments that tore me down as a person, and cause insecurities. It was the most difficult thing I had to go through so far in my life. 

   When those people that were born into the same family as you, who have lived through most of what you have lived through just cut you down and shit on you, it's not easy to come back from. What hope does that give a human being when the only people that are really supposed to lift you up and help you out actually tear you down? Is it something that we have to get used to? Is it something that we have to become and allow to cloud our minds and future? 

   When we allow negative thoughts to become all we think about, it becomes who we are. It becomes what we put into the Universe. Therefore, it becomes what we get in return.

   Learn who you are, worry only about your mind and spirit. 

Don't let negative judgmental thoughts cloud you from growing into a better individual. 

Gain your own mindset. 

Learn to do that thing we've become very scared of, 

Love.